Friday, January 15, 2010

Jesus loves me this I know...

Most of you know that we're expecting a little girl in exactly 40 days :) (February 24th if you don't feel like counting)and this pregnancy has been a breeze, definitely more tiring since we moved to a different state when I was 17 weeks pregnant, but unlike my other two babies, this one has had such peace to it...and whats weird, is that I didn't start seeing a doctor until I was 33 weeks pregnant. I know thats crazy, but insurance became an issue when we moved and then other insurance's wouldn't take me because I was "pre-existing"...finally I got qualified as an emergency through the state medical program, which I definitely don't like being on, but they were the only company that would take a pregnant woman past 20 weeks. SO! this entire pregnancy has really been sweet, I appreciate doctors, but they have to give you the worst case scenario and that seriously gets old, I understand that they are (in the words of Sam Rice) "Covering their butts", but they forget that I am the woman carrying this child inside of her body, and my humanity gets lost on them. With both my girls some very scary things were predicted and none of them happened, yet I spent too much time trying not to obsess about the "possibilities". With Mailey I tore my placenta and they said I would probably get very sick, with Em, She was breech at 37 1/2 weeks, and when I went in to try and have them turn her they found my fluid had completely dried up and they rushed me to the hospital for an emergency C-Section and said she could die at any time because of that. This little one however, has been so special, while I agree that one should be seen regularly during pregnancy, I dunno...I've really enjoyed just trusting the Great Physician...and now that I have seen a doctor, lo and behold, all these issues have begun to present themselves. The biggest one is that I cannot find a doctor who will give me care if I don't consent to a C-Section...and um..I adamantly do not. Mailey was born completely natural and everything was fine, Em was C-Sec. because she was breech, not because my body failed to labor correctly, So I had no intention of scheduling a c-section just for fun. Both the hospitals in my area said they would not do a VBAC (vaginal birth after csection) and that really really put a downer on everything. Can they really FORCE someone to have a surgery if there isn't a medical emergency? They all said yes they can, so I went online and read some literature (Ican-online.org is a GREAT WEBSITE)and found out that a hospital absolutely cannot force a C-Section, they can strongly recommend one, they can even make you feel like a bad mom for "risking" your unborn child, but they cannot strap you down and wheel you away kicking and screaming. So I went to our hospitals comliance officer and basically said "what the heck?". She then set up a meeting today with the head of the birthing unit, the legal representative and herself (by the way she was a hardcore lesbian, like I thought she might've been a man I was so confused) to have me basically plead my case. I seriously felt like David and Goliath and I was david (obviously haha). So...every support group I found basically said, you'll be shut down. But they don't know God or my wonderful church who prays for me. Today I sent out a text to everyone asking them to pray twenty mintues before I left. When I walked in I loved the head of the birthing unit, her name is tracy and she looks like Kris Altringer, obviously beautiful :) and she has four children all born natural. Immediately she launched into the legal and medical risks, then I reminded her that the risk of my uterus rupturing (the biggest concern) is less than 1%, but the risk of the doctor accidently cutting the baby during the c-section is 4-6%, I'll go with the first one thank you very much. She laughed and said good point, at that time the legal dude scribbling away and looking homosexual had to leave for a meeting, and as soon as he was gone, Tracy got real. She said, "Listen, you're right, we can't force you. You can sign a waiver saying you know the risks and have this baby naturally." then she gave me her personal number and said when I go into labor call her and she'll make sure she's on my case so she can sign off on everything. I was blown away! Can you believe it? So, like I said, Jesus loves me this I know...and I also know my wonderful wonderful friends back home who prayed for me, love me too. There are a few miracles in these cases, and I got one of them...thank you thank you thank you.

3 comments:

Anne of Alamo said...

you so rock! I loved reading this and found myself cheering for you!
we are praying for you and Kennedi daily!!
and whoa to those who get in the way of a woman who has children, a man who loves her and a God who has her in the apple of His eye!

John said...

I love you and your crazy self. I think God does too :) Looking forward to a glorious natural birth...very soon!

Mackenzie Rice said...

awww what a shweet post;) prayin for youre labor that all goes well and how u want it hah!